I started to think about my life that walked past me all these years as I finally have time to really sit down and think. (yes my 1.5 years at cable got my 200% of working capacity and I am glad that I am out now. )
Before I start my new job, it is a very good time to do the thing that I like the most, a review, a note about my current feelings.
I have lose contact with a lot of people over the past few years, some I just intended to stop contact because they shits me for some reasons. And for others, the connection was lost mainly because the online chatting software was out to date and I stopped using it.
I have been really addicted to facebook these days and found a lot of old friends that i used to be very close to while I was still using icq and when i was still socially active. I looked at their pages, and mainly their pictures and can't stop thinking to myself
"what have I missed all these years?"
i have chosen work above everything else, family, social life, and after looking at their pages, i started to question myself once again, is it worth it? As this is my hole in a tree (ref: in the mood for love) I don't mind telling you that quitting my current job mainly because of people that super irritates me, and that week, it makes me so angry that i swear that I have to get out of this hell hole. that's when I realize that when you put all your bet onto one thing and when that thing turns against you, you lose everything.
I am glad that i have decided to quit and move on. My new job should be relatively less working hours and working style should be more comfortable compare to my day to night | night to day insane marathon working routine. And I pray to whoever that's out there that please let me meet some good people at this new place.
Although there are shit people at cable (quite a lot actually), there are still a lot of nice and friendly people that I am gonna miss. I am not a social person at all, and I wish my departure could be more all rounded but hey, everything got its first time.
which brings me back to the main theme of this note.
in recent years, people's relationships depend too much on social networking technologies, like myspace, facebook or blog...(yes .... I am one good example) is it good or is it bad? I am not going to judge it. But to have a gateway, a peeping hole to look at your friends is not such a bad idea, at least not for me, an otaku. Through these websites, i did get in touch with a lot of long lost friends. Although we have lost contact for too long that it's almost 100% that we are not going to meet face by face anymore (I am just not that kind of person), but having the opportunity to send messages to each other to see how things are going on the opposite side is kinda good.
yes the human touch is lost. To be honest, i don't like talking on the phones anymore, especially to people that i don't know very well or haven't met in ages. Geez...sound like I have become an alien in social networking. - A robot that forgets how to love. and to confess, I really don't enjoy social gatherings and I only like to spend time with people that I feel comfortable with and to be frank these kind of people are rare, but as long as you got one, you are set for life!!
I am glad that I still got friends and they basically form a very strong support architecture for me to function properly in this cold hearted city.
on monday, 3 NOV. new life begins and i wish myself all the best.
engine starts and go!!
(I am really into b/w photography these days, it just adds another level of emotion to the photos, one night at osaka & last days at cable) I will post the regular photos of my last days later on if I feel like it.
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