Tuesday, May 20, 2008

Afterthought

Afterthought

Song shakkazombie - big blue

I am now sitting in my seat of flight NH 911 flying back to hk.....I am going back to work straight away tomorrow and I am now doing some serious thinking

My job is just too tough and it is really time for me to seriouly consider what to do next. I want to have a job that allows me to have my own life while I can still able to use my multimedia skills and hopefully, i can go back to my animation production routine

music: Towa tei series let me know

I am really sick of doing promos now as the creative freedom is so small, especially with my tv station and I am starting to feel that my skills are not being fully utilized. I like some of the people there as they treat me like family but still i think it is not enough.

Besides I want to work less hours, I want to have time for friends and family. If I keep this long hours, there are no way they I can have a normal social life.

music: Miho album - drop by drop

I know I want to write this for quite a long time. And now since I am in the plane, it allows me to do so. I did have some serious thoughts during this trip while I am with my friends I couldn't help but thinking that I am afraid to get into a serious relationship

Is it because of my previous experience? I can't really tell. But know she for sure has moved on ages ago.

For me I am still standing at the same spot.

Before I gone to japan, I heard some stories which makes me wonder..... How can love be so blind.....it is clearly that a couple doesn't match but still they are together and in another case, after separation one still have feelings for The other one..... Life is simply too complex for me and I just want to make it as simple we possible.....

But looking at my best buddy, he is really doing ok and they didnt even seemed to stress about it at all

They are very happy and..... I want to be happy too.

There are a lot of mean people in my circle and I just dont like the feeling pf having to constantly maneuver in order to place myself in a comfortable situation, my brain needs to he on complex consequence analysis and it is really going to drive me nuts

Minimalism is what j need

Suddenly had a thought about job, I want to have a job that I can contribute something to our society. I think at this point of my life, i wan to do more than just making beautiful things

Also I also have to add a balance to job and personal tme that I devote in it, I want to make things perfect and they will require me to put in triple the time needed than just a regular output like my other workmates, this can easily reach a basic standard in my office but for me..... Seeing something that represents me and if it does not look at its best, it really irritates me.

I am really grateful to sayuri whom she took a day off just to show me around while I was in Osaka. We were traveling buddies back in my Melbourne days. I know she I'd a really punctual person in terms of time and I dare not to be late. For me, if my friend comes to visit hong kong , would I give up a day just for them ?

I really don't know and so far i have never done that

Meeting Fonteyn was a surprise too!!!! I just randomly asks people before I come to japan for any traveling tips and there she replies, not only she is coming to japan she and her friend also lives so close to me so ikebushi which the other night I realize that it was a red light district and our area was surrounded by " love hotel's" and adult video shops

I was am really good at making small conversations and make people feel comfortable. Breaking the ice during a lost in translation is my best strength really. (Like John Travolta keeping Uma Thurman a good company for the night in Pulp Fiction) I said to myself right here up high in the sky if I meet any girls that I like and I know they she is single i will make my move I think it is about time that I can be back in the circle

Song: what a difference they make

I know my workmates will ask if I get any "action" during my trip, well I am sorry that I have to disappoint them again.

When I go back home I will straight away make sure that all the photos are safely transferred into my computer. Because there are just so many important shots that I can't afford to loose them really.

I am going to spent a lot of time organizing my album and then post them online for the world to see

I am a spontaneous person. The main reason that I suddenly decided to come japan was because of a movie that I love so much - Sofia  Coppola's lost in translation. This movie inspires me a lot and visiting that big triangular zebra crossing at Shibuya was really a dream came true

I am really looking forward to the next movie that inspires me to visit

I still got quite a lot of days in my annual leave and I am absolutely positive about a second traveling this year but the destination is yet to be decided so staytune

Alright I got to chill out now

Great to have my iPod touch with me this time!!!!

10: 59 Japanese time

Cheers
Thomas
18-5-08
On the plane now located high up on the ocean


Sent from my iPod